What am I going to do?
After you finish school in the middle of June, you’re going to leave. You’re going to go back to Korea to start working. I am happy for you. But I will be so sad that we’re going to be so far apart.
You said long distance won’t work out for you because you need the physical touch in a relationship. But it would work if we really try. I don’t want us to fade away. I just want to have hope for us in the future. I don’t want to forget how much you meant to me and let that all go. I don’t mind waiting if I knew you’ll come back to me after you’ve worked for a few years or so.
Or maybe I was stupid to fall in love with you in the first place if I knew you were going to leave in the end and thinking we would be forever. My expectations were too high and I didn’t think about the disappointments that would follow. I got too attached.
So now I don’t know what to do after you leave…
Taurus: Generally, you’re a quiet, easygoing person. You don’t like to much talk because there’s a tendency for you to be a little introverted and shy. You need time to think before you speak. When someone is talking “crap,” you can come up with a comment that puts them in their place (you can spot the phonies). This even surprises you in the process sometimes.
I haven’t really posted a personal post in a while but here’s one that is really personal.
Being in my first real serious relationship, I thought it was going to be perfect. I guess now I realized I expected too much until it was too late. I didn’t think about all the cons and just dove right into it. I fell too deeply in love and got hurt so many times by just this one person. And I can’t seem to let him go because I love him too much. Why can’t I ever learn from my mistakes? I can never think before I speak or do something and it always ruins things.
But to have someone come into your life and become your life saver and then eventually leaving, it’s hard. I just wanted to have hope for the future and have something to live for. I just thought he was the one.
Or maybe I am just being too delusional…
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I really need to get my sleeping schedule back to normal and not be getting less than 5 hrs of sleep a night. I am getting major eye bags…
It hurts when you’re the only one giving an effort in a relationship.
While the other just doesn’t seem to care anymore.
I’ve been sleeping when the sun is rising and waking up when it sets.
I need to go back to my normal sleeping schedule. School is starting Monday. Ughhh. I hate morning classes.
